The Last Days

Waiting for FB in this world, as he continues to grow in his, is akin to having one foot in Oklahoma and one in Texas; there's a part of me in each state.

Isn't it true?  When we were pregnant with our own children, this balance was pronounced in the last days of pregnancy.  Not quite child-free, yet no baby in our arms.

The Last Days

Mothering of baby-to-be via taking care of ourselves is a very different prospect than mothering after birth.  The pull between the two states of being leaves many a mother-to-be confused and anxious.  Who is she now?  Who will she be?

I have found myself in a similar arena.  I know who I am now, but who will I be as a grandmother?

At this point in my life I can safely assume that as I step from one state, the place of simply being a mother, and fully enter the next, as a grandmother, I will soon wonder how I ever doubted my ability to segue to this new and and magical land.

This dream-esque place I find myself in is incredibly similar to where I stood so many years ago as we awaited Boy's arrival. It is filled with the beauty and wonder of new beginnings and the unknown, of expectation and surprise.  It is a marvel.

Yet, as I find myself ready to embark on this adventure, I am determined to embrace this fleeting passage. To honor its wisdom. To bend to the lesson. To let go and pass it along, when the time comes.

In these last days, I am blessed.

 

 

 

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  1. Being a grandma is really awesome. We became g-parents for the first time just one year ago. You are in for quite a ride!! Enjoy! (And easy, speedy birth for Mom!)

  2. They say, "When a baby is born, so is a grandmother." It's amazing and humbling all at once. A precious gift that makes one all at once silent and filled with bragging.

  3. What a marvelous adventure you are about to embark on. We have 10 grands, nearly grown, and I miss the little toes and ears so bad I could cry. Enjoy
    QMM

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