Fill Me Up, Baby

It’s been a month, 4 weeks and one day, of growing into my new role as Grandmutter (?), Grannna (?), Geema (?), and I want to share some unexpected truths I’ve learned.  Nothing but the best for you, my sweet readers.

Let’s bullet point this truth-down, shall we?

* I love my family deeply.  This love is crimson and wild and unconstrained, spilling and splashing its overwhelming goodness on anyone brave enough to get close.

* When I married Husband, I thought I knew all there was to know about the well of love.

* When I had Boy, I knew there was more to love than I previously thought to be true.

* When Boy married Girl, I suddenly had a daughter that wasn’t from my own womb, but that I now love as if she had been mine all along.

* When Boy and Girl gave us Sweet E, love expanded in ways I thought impossible.

* Watching Husband with his grandson for the first time nearly brought me to my knees.  He is a spectacular father, a loving and faithful husband, yet that day I watched him grow into a giant of a good man.

* Watching Boy with his son for the first time, and subsequent times after, has been a gift I never knew to be one of the greatest this world has to offer. My love for my child is legendary. Witnessing his young-man-to-father leap astonishes my heart. From the day of Sweet E’s birth to the end of my time here, my love for Boy officially exceeds the legend.

* Watching Girl become a mother before my very eyes was nothing short of faith becoming flesh.  She was transformed and I was transfixed.  We were on holy ground as the circle of life swept us out in the sea of love.

* I am a toe-in-the-water kinda gal.  My MO is to get the lay of the land before jumping in, but when I jump, I’m all in.  When Sweet E was born, I felt myself watching from a bit of a distance.  As a writer, I observe; it’s second nature.  I felt myself hold back.  Last week, when I went to help for a week, I jumped in. Now, I’m hopelessly in love with that child.

* I thought I was filled pre-E; I thought my love o’meter was pegged.  Had I learned nothing in this life?!  I honestly thought that we’d eagerly welcome this new edition with open and grateful arms, but I hadn’t counted on how my heart would grow, how our hearts would be filled to overflowing….again!

Those of you who have read here for a while, know I worried about how I would handle this new role as a grandmama.  It felt foreign and awkward.  I didn’t feel grandmothery.  How do I do that?!

I shouldn’t have worried.  Sweet E is here and he has taken ahold of my heart and led me to understanding; I have love and it’s enough.

Fill me up, baby!

Fill Me Up, Baby!


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  1. Yup – it’s official now, ain’t it? And honestly, you think you’re totally in love now with that little sleeping miracle but just wait….it gets better and stronger, day by day! Enjoy that beautiful little boy and all the wonders that lie ahead.

    I too have a son who has amazed me with his “daddy-ways’ and a daughter-in-law who is a wonderful mother and wife and friend. My grandchild is a girl…3 yrs old now and she owns my heart!

    Enjoy this new chapter!

  2. Ahh, what a beautiful post! I still have a good bit of time to the life of Grammy but I know it’s clearly something to look forward to. All the best to you and your beautiful family.

  3. Thanks. Now I am teary and sniffly at work. Beautiful baby and beautiful omi.

  4. he is seriously, breath-takingly beautiful!! awwwwww and he looks like your son. <3

    • Mrs. Tucker says

      Omgosh! Thank you. I kept telling Boy, as I held Sweet E, that I was whisked back in time because he looked so much like Boy when he was a baby. Boy scoffed. Until I sent him the pics of him at a similar age. Twinsies!

  5. you made me cry. He’s just a precious little love. I can’t wait to hear all of the wonderful stories to come, but most especially when he learns a bad word from you ;0

    • Mrs. Tucker says

      I hate to know you cried, but is it wrong to be happy that I could get you there with my words?! ~ha~ I have sworn that child will not learn a curse word from me. SWORN!

  6. I knew you would see the light, just wait, it truly gets better.

  7. Lori @ A Bright and Beautiful Life says

    Beautiful post. We are expecting our first grandbaby in May and I will be Grandma. I’m so excited, and what you have written is exactly what we are going to experience. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

  8. wow, so sweet… what a lovely and thoughtful post… I LOVE the photo :o) Came over from MY Turn For US…would love for you to stop by my blog

  9. Oh he is so adorable!! I remember when I had my parents first grandchild and it was such an emotional time for them both. My dad was a sobbing mess and I had never seen him that way before. It brings out love and joy that can not be explained! Congrats Grandma! 😉 Julia @

  10. Beautifully expressed! I think you covered it all! One 8 lb-ish bundle just moves right in and changes the entire world of everybody he/she knows! But as others have said – “just wait” – when baby starts to actively recognize you that’s when the fun really starts! Congratulations! He is so perfect!

  11. Beautiful post! Congratulations on your sweet grandbaby!

  12. I didn’t think I was ready to be a grandmother either…but when Little Man was put in my arms a year ago, my life has forever been changed. I have a new spring to my step that had been gone for awhile.It is amazing how a wee little one can change you so! Congratulations on such a beautiful grandbaby!!! What a delight he will add to your life!

    • Mrs. Tucker says

      It was a feeling that was so surprising, even though so many had been telling me it would happen. I can’t wait for all the years we have ahead of us (God-willing). Congrats on yours as well!

  13. SO sweet <3

  14. Sweet E is just beautiful and so understand what you are saying. Until you get there you just can’t know how much fuller your heart can get — and it ain’t over!

  15. Wow, such a sweet baby!

  16. This post made me subscribe to your blog because you practically described me. I felt, all over again, my girl’s births and my grandkids births. NOW I have 2 GREAT-grandbabies…and I watch as my precious granddaughter grows into an astonishing mother. And the love just grows. Thanks for sharing.

  17. Alice (@mumsmakelists) says

    Such a beautiful post – Alice x

  18. Oh Mrs. Tucker, you sing my song. I have had a bumpier experience than you in “grandma world” but God has been faithful to make everything new. My kids, grand kids and great grands are the loves of my life. My husband is growing in his role, as well. It’s all very wonderful. Thank you so much for sharing this link on Wonderful Wednesday Blog Hop. Please come back again next week.

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